It's the day after the Blogger's Blog Awards, I'm sat at my desk with a homemade iced coffee, watching my washing dry outside and wondering how to start this post. I'm listening to Maximo Park because they played a song at the awards yesterday and it reminded me they existed. Listening to them is making me happy sad the way old music does.
I was planning to write a post about the awards yesterday (which by the time you read this will actually be a week yesterday - a girl's gotta schedule) but I don't actually feel like I have that much to say about it. I mean the venue was nice, I met some lovely people and I have a pretty funny story about how me and Ashton both managed to be late enough to miss our train, but I have this odd feeling today where I'm kicking myself for being that shy girl again.
Before the awards I was really excited to chat to loads of people I'd never met before and really look up to as bloggers. I was happy I'd finally bitten the bullet and been brave enough to attend a big blogger event. In reality I just couldn't do it and it made me realise it is quite difficult being a shy blogger. It's irrational because I know anyone I'd spoken to would have been really lovely, but I had the fear. People might be reading this and thinking that I just need to man the f**k up and to be fair that's pretty much what I'm thinking too, but as a naturally shy person it's difficult to approach people without worrying that you'll just make a massive tit out of yourself.
The event itself was so well organised and executed and I did really enjoy meeting the lovely people that I did chat to, but I'm just really annoyed at myself today for being shy and a massive scaredy cat. I feel like this post is a promise to myself that next time I attend a big event I'll just feel the fear and do it anyway (LOL cringe) so if I ever write a self pitying post like this again feel free to give me the kick up the arse I need.
On a lighter note, I was in such a rush to get out of the house that I forgot my camera, hence the lack of pictures, then we missed our train anyway because we were both late so at least that's a funny story. Also it was lovely to get to know Ashton better and to finally meet Corinne, whose blog I've been reading for a long time! Also I'm sorry to be such a moaning myrtle, this post is probably a conversation I should have just had in my head!
Amy x
It's lovely to know that you had such a good time. I do this so often too..over analyse everything days after it even happened. Don't worry too much :)
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I definitely over analyse everything! I did have a lovely time though :) xx
DeleteI'm a shy girl as well so I can relate to this post and the way you're feeling. I wish I could give you a good piece of advice but I still have no idea how to overcome the shyness and it's one thing I really wish I could change about myself. Maybe we should start putting ourselfs more out there in the future? Try to escape the good old comfort zone? I'm sure we can do it! :) Wishing you a great start of the week!
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I'm glad it's not me - so frustrating isn't it! Yeah I think we just need to push ourselves out of our comfort zone and hope for the best haha! Hope you have a lovely week and aren't too crazy busy! xx
DeleteGreat post, thank you for sharing :) I agree it can be daunting going to events
ReplyDeleteCamille xo
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Thank you - it definitely can be daunting but need to push myself out of my comfort zone next time! Xx
DeleteWow! lovely post dear, glad you had fun.
ReplyDeletewww.tessyonyia.com
Thank you, it was a lovely event I definitely had fun :) xx
DeleteLovely post Amy. I felt exactly the same. I found it so hard not to beat myself up for not making the most of the opportunity. Hopefully it will get easier the more we go to!
ReplyDeleteThank you! So good to know it's not just me - I'm sure it will get easier! Xx
DeleteYou probably won't believe this but I am super shy too haha. I can totally relate to this Amy. Glad you went and had a good time though. Have a great start to your week. Gemma x
ReplyDeletewww.jacquardflower.uk
So nice to know that people who seem so confident online are actually just as shy as me! Thanks Gemma xx
DeleteNoo, you are not moaning! A blog is to express feelings, and I am glad to know you a bit better, to know you are shy - and being shy is not a flaw, it's a characteristic! Some are extroverts - and this doesn't mean they have a better behavior. So whenever you feel like that, the desire to write about it, do so, it is good! It's good that you met a blogger you know virtually, I bet you both had a great time! Hope you have a nice week!
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That's true it is good to write about it - I want to be honest on here after all! Thanks Denise :) xx
DeleteI would probably do the same things that you did if I ever went to an event (or worse)! I'm so shy and awkward and I usually don't even try to talk to anyone because I'm scared that I will sound stupid! But it's great to hear that it was a lovely event :)
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Yeah I'm scared I'll sound stupid too! Glad it's not just me haha xx
DeleteGirl don't ever feel stupid for speaking out and posting something like this - it's a brave thing to do! Even after 5 years of blogging, I still get super nervous attending events! It's so daunting walking into a room full of people I don't know, and even when I do know people it can still be cliche and make me feel uncomfortable. Good for you for going and meeting some lovely people lady!
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Aw thanks lovely - it's very reassuring to know that even though you're so successful you sometimes feel the same! Xx
DeleteGood for your Amy for being open with your shyness! I get the same way in situations I'm not completely comfortable in, even if I'm excited to be there! Next year you'll get 'em :)
ReplyDeleteAw thank you :) I'm sure I'll be better next year! Xx
DeleteI have so much respect for you for posting this Amy, from one shy blogger to another <3 I've often cancelled going to events and turned down opportunities due to be being anxious and nervous about meeting new people, hopefully I'll be able to push myself soon xx
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Ah thank you, I'm so glad I bit the bullet and went so at least that's a step in the right direction! Xx
DeleteThis is SO normal. It's scary going to events and speaking to people, even if you have spoken to them before online. Especially when it seems like everyone else already knows each other! But it's just experience.
ReplyDeleteI feel like every time I go to a blog event, I get less and less shy. I spoke to SO many more people at these awards than I did at last years. It's a combination of knowing more people and just practice of meeting people. I wouldn't worry too much about it and don't kick yourself, just know that you need to keep on coming to more events and it will get easier!
Don't let it stop you enjoying events, just take it at your own pace.
Corinne x
Aw thanks Corinne this is so helpful and I'm sure you're right - it's probably just practice! I will definitely keep coming to events so will hopefully get better with time! Xx
DeleteYou're not moaning at all - your blog is your space to write whatever the hell you want! It also helps to process your feelings by writing it down so don't ever apologise. I think you'll find so many people will be able to relate as well, shyness is such a common trait. More people than you realise are actually shy but just fake it til they make it - so the more you start talking to new people the easier it should be. I'm sure no one you met at the awards will be thinking 'Cor, wasn't Amy a shy bore' I bet they thought it was a pleasure to meet you. x
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Aw thank you lovely - so many people do seem to feel the same! I just need practice! Xx
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